I bet you if I stopped texting you or talking to you you would not notice or cared for that matter maybe I should see what you do or think. I don’t know anymore. I need a friend or someone to hug and talk to you since I can’t do that with you. But you have many friends to do that with.
Getting back into the slump I use to be in. Guess its back to the way it use to be me not going out with anyone and still putting you first but you going out and putting everyone else first and forgetting me. I guess I should say whatever I’m use to it. But I’m not it still hits me hard and I still cry my self to sleep. But it’s not like it would change anything you will be you and I will be me and I will always be that shadow behind you or be the one to try.
Feel down and gloomy don’t know if its because of my thoughts about him being weird and sneaky with his phone or because if I miss her sweet little smile? I’m trying not to think about what he did but then when I don’t I think about her! It sucks that today is her birthday and I wasn’t there to be with her I wish her the best on her 6th birthday. I know she is doing well up there and that she is looking down in me and my family missing us as well.
In that mood where your super bummed out and you don’t know how to stop thinking about it because your alone with your own thoughts and you are having a war with them!!! Ahhhh all I want is to be with you!! :0 sooo RADA RADA RADA to you too merp :(